The first Wednesday of the month is Insecure Writer's Support Group Hug Day - it couldn't have come at a better time!
I need a hug - really. I'm so torn up about the revisions to my first book, I'm ready to flush the whole damn thing. I think it's a good story - I've been told it's a good story, but I just can't seem to do anything with it. I know the changes I need to make, but it's gotten where the whole damn thing just irritates the crap out of me.
It's not the rejections - I can deal with those. It's the fact that I've lost the voice, the feel for the main character and I can't seem to get it back. I feel all:
whenever I start working on it again.
I realize this is a common affliction amongst the IWG. In fact, it's pretty common among all us writerly type people. I read a blog post the other day by FizzyGirl (aka Summer) that pretty well summed up the whole experience. You should read it - it really defines how I'm feeling. Yes, click on the bright red "FizzyGirl" above.
So, what I've decided to do is just put that first book aside for a while. The second book is out at a few agents and publishers, and I'm going to send it to a bunch more this weekend, which will at least make me feel semi-productive. And I'm going to work on the my other two WIPs - they are totally different from each other, as well as my earlier books, and they're a lot more fun to write as well.
They have unique voices that I really relate to (lot's of drinking and cussing in one, lot's of crazy, unbounded imaginative shit in the other) and they make me smile when I read them or work on them.
But first, I'm heading over to FizzyGirl's for a snergle.